Yesterday
Today, but since it's 12:15.... yesterday.... lol, me and Megan have much fun figuring out which one to say..... lol, only tonight she went to sleep before I got home... which was.... incredibly odd for me, since we usually stay up till at least 12:30.
So.... whatever you want to call it... was awesome. One of the really good times here.
Right, so like, my classes all went well... I was able to talk to Megan who I missed a ton during the weekend (she went home early on Friday and didn't get back till after ambien had knocked me out Sunday night... I believe 2 am). Like, Megan is my best friend down here. It makes me like, freaking happy to have her. She's just plain awesome. Her and Kody broke up. Friends, still. She drives him nuts cause she like... is really into flirting.... and watching him squirm.
So my last class ends at 4:30 pm, and I hung out with her, Kody, and Melissa till 7 pm when we went to Family Home Evening (church related... to ease the whole, missing fam at home, we get put into groups that are now our 'family' to hang out with Monday nights... all families are supposed to have a Family Home Evening where they develop relationships) where we watched Singles Ward (LDS movie... don't bother looking outside of Utah for it) and had pizza. Sadly, I paid three bucks for one piece and two cheese sticks. I could have had a whole thing of cheese sticks for fifty more cents if it was just me. So I have to admit being a bit irked about that.... but.... oh well I guess. It was good for me to do. Then, left early to go to Spensers.
K, so it was interesting finding the dorm Spense lives in. Like, I kinda went though a maze of apartments, circling buildings to find out which one it was... and then of course, I couldn't find a name on one.... so I was like.... just gonna hope for the best. THANKFULLY... the names of the inhabitants was posted on the door *trumpets* so when I got to his, his name reassured me that he lived there. He taught me some of the rules of magic and "annihilated" me (his word, I would have said pulverized). Oooh, best part is that he was impressed with how fast I figured it out... which made me very happy.
Funniest thing... k, so first guy down here I develop an interest in... and... he has manic depression. Like, seriously, what are the chances? I swear, I gravitate to people with some sort of mental disorder. Primarily ones that affect your mood.
So of course, I had to share this information with Ashley. I mean, how could I not, it's hilarious! Besides, it had been like... a week since I had talked to her, dude, I had no other choice, I mean... I can not last that freaking long without talking to Ash. I actually enjoy my phone calls with her. Which... for me, is very very odd. Speaking of phone calls, Spense told me to call him at 5 on Sunday, so I called at like 5:07 and he was impressed that I actually called that soon to on time. Really glad I did, cause it's sorta a test he uses with people, to like.... see if they are really dependable. I was a bit nervous cause of the phone phobia. Dude, I was talking to some people and the boy (Davis) was like talking about how awesome Hieronomous Bosch is (which he is) and I was like "Yeah, I took an AP Art History class" and.... of course.... speech impediment.... he couldn't figure out what I was saying. Neither could the girl. I tried twice more. Nope. *sigh* do you have any idea how difficult it is to freaking figure out a different way to say that that doesn't have an "R" in it? So I pretty much just gave up and decided we weren't destined to be friends. Thought about writing it out, but I tend to get odd looks when I do that. Pisses me off to no end... I mean... socialization is dependant on the ability to communicate.... how can I communicate when someone can't even freaking understand what I'm saying? Dude.... there are times when I will be reading something just like... in my head... and I come across a word.... and it's rare for me to hear myself with a speech impediment... like, seriously, in my head, I'm speaking correctly... it's just tapes that I know what I actually sound like... which is why I don't record myself... James... social worker at the hospital... heh.... he noticed that I avoid words with R's in them. Smart guy. Actually, that's probably a large reason for my large vocabulary... I've always been desperately seeking out ways to say something.... so that anyone can understand. Like... people will tell me that I have the coolest accent... and that they wish they had it.... and I wish I could feel that way.... holy piss, I'm tearing up.... I just.... want to be able to let people know how I feel. Like.... you'd be amazed how much it's affected my life adversely. Oh... but like, about reading.... I'll come to a word and I hear the impediment in my head.... and it freaking pisses me off.... because I know that I can't freaking say it.... and I go over it again and again trying to figure out how.... and I freaking try so hard.... and it freaking won't work. I hate speech impediments.... I just..... I would give anything.... to be able to just.... talk to someone and not have to worry about whether or not they'll understand what the crap I'm saying. And like.... it's genetic... so my kids will probably have it.... and like.... dude.... with speech therapy, you have to help your kids a lot..... how the crap am I supposed to help my kids when I can't say it? I'll just adversely affect them cause they'll get used to ME saying things wrong. Whew..... dang... been holding all that in for a long time, tend to avoid talking about it.
Anyways.... talked to Ash for a half hour... which was..... absolutely beautiful. Made my day. I think I'm gonna go to bed now, though.... I just like.... need to cry for a while.... and yeah.....
So.... whatever you want to call it... was awesome. One of the really good times here.
Right, so like, my classes all went well... I was able to talk to Megan who I missed a ton during the weekend (she went home early on Friday and didn't get back till after ambien had knocked me out Sunday night... I believe 2 am). Like, Megan is my best friend down here. It makes me like, freaking happy to have her. She's just plain awesome. Her and Kody broke up. Friends, still. She drives him nuts cause she like... is really into flirting.... and watching him squirm.
So my last class ends at 4:30 pm, and I hung out with her, Kody, and Melissa till 7 pm when we went to Family Home Evening (church related... to ease the whole, missing fam at home, we get put into groups that are now our 'family' to hang out with Monday nights... all families are supposed to have a Family Home Evening where they develop relationships) where we watched Singles Ward (LDS movie... don't bother looking outside of Utah for it) and had pizza. Sadly, I paid three bucks for one piece and two cheese sticks. I could have had a whole thing of cheese sticks for fifty more cents if it was just me. So I have to admit being a bit irked about that.... but.... oh well I guess. It was good for me to do. Then, left early to go to Spensers.
K, so it was interesting finding the dorm Spense lives in. Like, I kinda went though a maze of apartments, circling buildings to find out which one it was... and then of course, I couldn't find a name on one.... so I was like.... just gonna hope for the best. THANKFULLY... the names of the inhabitants was posted on the door *trumpets* so when I got to his, his name reassured me that he lived there. He taught me some of the rules of magic and "annihilated" me (his word, I would have said pulverized). Oooh, best part is that he was impressed with how fast I figured it out... which made me very happy.
Funniest thing... k, so first guy down here I develop an interest in... and... he has manic depression. Like, seriously, what are the chances? I swear, I gravitate to people with some sort of mental disorder. Primarily ones that affect your mood.
So of course, I had to share this information with Ashley. I mean, how could I not, it's hilarious! Besides, it had been like... a week since I had talked to her, dude, I had no other choice, I mean... I can not last that freaking long without talking to Ash. I actually enjoy my phone calls with her. Which... for me, is very very odd. Speaking of phone calls, Spense told me to call him at 5 on Sunday, so I called at like 5:07 and he was impressed that I actually called that soon to on time. Really glad I did, cause it's sorta a test he uses with people, to like.... see if they are really dependable. I was a bit nervous cause of the phone phobia. Dude, I was talking to some people and the boy (Davis) was like talking about how awesome Hieronomous Bosch is (which he is) and I was like "Yeah, I took an AP Art History class" and.... of course.... speech impediment.... he couldn't figure out what I was saying. Neither could the girl. I tried twice more. Nope. *sigh* do you have any idea how difficult it is to freaking figure out a different way to say that that doesn't have an "R" in it? So I pretty much just gave up and decided we weren't destined to be friends. Thought about writing it out, but I tend to get odd looks when I do that. Pisses me off to no end... I mean... socialization is dependant on the ability to communicate.... how can I communicate when someone can't even freaking understand what I'm saying? Dude.... there are times when I will be reading something just like... in my head... and I come across a word.... and it's rare for me to hear myself with a speech impediment... like, seriously, in my head, I'm speaking correctly... it's just tapes that I know what I actually sound like... which is why I don't record myself... James... social worker at the hospital... heh.... he noticed that I avoid words with R's in them. Smart guy. Actually, that's probably a large reason for my large vocabulary... I've always been desperately seeking out ways to say something.... so that anyone can understand. Like... people will tell me that I have the coolest accent... and that they wish they had it.... and I wish I could feel that way.... holy piss, I'm tearing up.... I just.... want to be able to let people know how I feel. Like.... you'd be amazed how much it's affected my life adversely. Oh... but like, about reading.... I'll come to a word and I hear the impediment in my head.... and it freaking pisses me off.... because I know that I can't freaking say it.... and I go over it again and again trying to figure out how.... and I freaking try so hard.... and it freaking won't work. I hate speech impediments.... I just..... I would give anything.... to be able to just.... talk to someone and not have to worry about whether or not they'll understand what the crap I'm saying. And like.... it's genetic... so my kids will probably have it.... and like.... dude.... with speech therapy, you have to help your kids a lot..... how the crap am I supposed to help my kids when I can't say it? I'll just adversely affect them cause they'll get used to ME saying things wrong. Whew..... dang... been holding all that in for a long time, tend to avoid talking about it.
Anyways.... talked to Ash for a half hour... which was..... absolutely beautiful. Made my day. I think I'm gonna go to bed now, though.... I just like.... need to cry for a while.... and yeah.....
posted by Cynic at 12:48 AM
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