ROCK THE CRADLE OF LOVE

I love life. I freaking love life. I LOVE IT!!!!

I have a boyfriend again! At the moment just online, but he may be coming home tomorrow to make me a true badger! Sweetness! He he he he he he he, I'm so happy. Patricia talked to me for a while after social psych, she was like "I always feel like we should pray after that class" and I was like "Totally! I feel the spirit more there than in institute!" and it was so happy, cause like, someone else established what I think all the time. It was great!

La la la roommates

I copied this over from the email I sent my mom!


So I haven't written to anyone in a while, cause I was frustrated and a bit bitter. See... I've been noticing missing things lately..... and when half my loaf of bread was gone and I hadn't touched it, I figured I had firm proof that someone had been stealing from me. I knew all along that it was Melissa, but to double check myself I asked Amber and Megan if they'd used any of my bread. Even asked Kody. They all said no, which I already knew, and told them that I knew they hadn't.
And so... on umm....... I think Wednesday last week, I asked Melissa calmly if she'd been using my bread. She said no, and that maybe I should HIDE IT. That pissed me off. So I went to my room with the half a loaf and slammed the door hard enough that the frame shook and Megan jumped. I talked to Megan for like five minutes while I calmed down and gained courage. Then I went back out, sat down, and calmly explained that Amber and Megan said they hadn't taken it. I explained that when people lie to me, it's like a slap in the face saying that they think I'm stupid enough to believe it. She still didn't confess, and even said that she thought Amber took it.
So I went to my room and was angry and Brittany came over and made me happy and I made several gripings with the door open about someone lying about stealing my bread and about how they suck and then I was happy again.
The next day, I found a note on my food cabinet door.
It read, exactly.....

"Shelly

Sometime on Friday - Sunday we need talk about some things. I appreciate your friendship + I am not doubting that I'm suppose to be in this Apartment.
Leave a note under my door when we can talk.

Melissa Plumb

I'm sorry I've ben a Lier/Jurk, and A bad freind.
please forgive me.

no one must read it."

And so after Megan, Kody, and Amber left for the weekend I hid in my room the whole time. I didn't actually talk to her until Sunday night at 11. I asked what she wanted to talk about.

She asked me if I honestly wanted her to stay or leave next semester.

Ya know..... I honestly feel bad for her. Cause like, she alienates all the friends she has, no one can stand being around her. Megan, one of the most compassionate people I've met.... wants to kill her.... Amber hates her. The friends she had are pissed off at her cause of a bunch of crap she pulls. She acts like a five year old in a twenty two year old body. So I've been patient with her. I've been kind. I'm not even pissed off at her anymore.

She's never formally apologized or even admitted to stealing from me. I needed that. So for like half an hour I sat in there occasionally making comments about how I feel about being lied to.... and how it made me feel..... and even went so far as to say that it made me wonder what else she had lied about.... what else she had stolen...... to all of this, her only response was "yeah" "mm hmm" as she put away her laundry. That pissed me off. So I asked a couple direct questions like "Why did you lie about stealing it" which she really just muttered nonsensical sentences to about how a friend had been in a situation similar but different and she was worried and something clicked in her mind. Basically, I got the impression that something clicked in her mind that told her to lie to save our relationship.... and something about this happening with another person, I think it was her stealing from someone else as well...... but I honestly don't know cause she was being secretive about it.

So anywho...... after trying for like a half hour to get her to just like.... formally apologize..... or at least try to justify herself..... and her avoiding any real discussion.... I gave up, made it a lost case, and said no.

Honestly..... I've forgiven her. However, she's driving Amber and Megan insane. Amber already snubs her and refuses to acknowledge her existence. Megan avoids her so far as to spend the entire day at the library to avoid the chance of running into her. I'm doing it more for their sake than for mine. Plus, she'd have an awful time if she stayed.

And then she was like "I never should have moved in. Amber was right, I've already jeopordized our friendship and with Amber. The only relationship I haven't jeopordized is Megan's."

I had to stifle a laugh cause Megan hates her now and is actually kinda mega weirded out by her cause like, Melissa took the whole..... gay joke (me and Megan like to joke about us being girlfriends cause it's hilarious) way too far by kissing her on the cheek a couple times. And the whole, Megan felt bad for Melissa since she hasn't been home all semester so she let her come home with her even though she really didn't want to. She was embarrassed of Melissa the entire weekend and like.... didn't hang out with most of her friends because of it. And like, Melissa put Megan in a bad mood for the entire week.

So anyways, that's taken care of now. Now Megan and Amber can stop considering moving off campus to get away from her.



Whew..... in other news, I have a date for the Saturday after Thanksgiving and I'm way excited. Also, you get to pick me up on Tuesday! Sweetness. I'm so excited to come home. Since the Kody break up (did I tell you he said "I see you as more of a sister"?) and roommate issues, I've been a bit homesick. Plus I miss Kirsten way bad cause we haven't seen each other since John's farewell. And someone on campus has her car and every time I see it I think of Kirsten!

Anywho, gotta run to class now.

GOOM! Last Weekend.

So Megan went home last weekend. With Melissa. She's a stronger person than I.

While she was gone, me and Kody hung out almost the whole time. Like... Friday we decided to have a party. So we went to Walmart and got two cases of pop. That was also to help my can collection, I have over fifty now. I also got the second season of Third Rock from the Sun cause I love it. We watched the first dvd before Kody got kicked out.

On Saturday, around noon, I went over and we made breakfast. Delicious pancakes. And cheesy eggs. It was marvelous. OH! Friday we got a ride home from Walmart from random nice people. It was so awesome! But anyways, on the way to my place, we saw two girls in blankets and pillows and stuff lying out on the lawn. So we said hi and somehow we all decided that we should meet at one am and like, sleep outside. Crazy. Yes.

So then we watched the rest of Third Rock from the Sun and then talked for a while and it was 1:30 am and we went outside and one of the girls had actually showed up. in a tent! So we walked over and she was like "HEY! You're the people!" Ha ha, yeah, we still didn't know names or anything. So umm... we went back inside and grabbed a bunch of blankets and then went out and the three of us got comfy in the tent. And then the other girl showed up with her boyfriend and since the tent was really just a two man tent, they got comfy outside the tent. We had a lot of fun talking and stuff and then Brittany (the one in the tent with us) was having allergy issues and decided to go back inside. I'm guessing that was at about 3 am. A little while after she went in, Chandler (Sierra's boyfriend) started trying to figure what it would take to get us out of the tent. We settled on nylon rope. I don't really know why. Kody wanted some. So we got outside and holy crap it was cold. Kody gave me a dialogue of what he thought was going on inside the tent based on what we heard for a while. At 6 am we finally wimped out and decided to get our keys from inside the tent which required asking for them. So then Sierra and Chandler were like... if you guys are going in, we are too. Kody wanted to stay with me for the rest of the night, so we decided to sneak him into my dorm.

K.... so I'm a bit confused. Kody is obviously still physically attracted to me since he'd start cuddling with me, usually start complaining about being a boy, then turn his back to me and a few times I got the feeling he wanted to kiss me. I don't really know what to make of that, but to be perfectly honest, I would have kissed back. And like... we started out in my bed (k... so I took my socks off when we got inside and when our toes would touch, they'd stick together.... THAT'S how cold our toes were) and then I noticed he moved to the floor, and then to Megan's bed. Woke up at about 11:30. Came out of my room and Amber had come home. So I figured she would be confused, so after Kody left, I explained about sleeping outside and stuff.

So yeah....

And I don't feel like making an extra post, so I'm explaining here that I gave blood yesterday for the first time.

It was fine for a while, but nearing the end, I started getting really light headed and couldn't focus and felt like I was going to pass out. So since the girl working with me wasn't paying attention, the guy working on Megan on the other side of the room (about 40 feet away) noticed how pale I was getting and stuff and he and Megan kinda exchanged glances (she informed me of this) and he booked it over to me, asked how I was doing, went faster than I've ever seen getting the needle out of me. He didn't even try to ask me to lift my arm up like he did for everyone else. As soon as I was bandaged, he got me an ice pack and told me not to shut my eyes and stuff. Holy crap it was hard keeping my eyes open. I got the whole.... fuzzy hearing and stuff and like... my entire body ached and I just wanted to pass out so bad. I almost blacked out but somehow stayed with it. Anyways, he put the ice pack on my chest and the girl got one to put behind my neck and I was sweating profusely, so she dabbed my forehead which I was very grateful for. Kody got me water, juice, and cookies, and I stayed propped up for like ten minutes. I stayed sitting for like another ten before the ice packs came off and then like five minutes before I thought I could stand up. So yeah, I'm having fun telling people I almost died. Is it a lie? Yes. I don't care. It's more fun that way, plus I seriously was worried about myself and how fast that guy was working.

So anyways, that was yesterday.

I'm bored of writing.