Depression

How am I supposed to be happy when surrounded with depression?

Free time is boredom says:
So, whats on your mind
"I'm just hangin out in my bra." -Anonymous since if I told who she'd kill me says:
, I've decided I'm the missing link
"I'm just hangin out in my bra." -Anonymous since if I told who she'd kill me says:
between men and women
"I'm just hangin out in my bra." -Anonymous since if I told who she'd kill me says:
and thus, have no mate
Free time is boredom says:
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Free time is boredom says:
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"I'm just hangin out in my bra." -Anonymous since if I told who she'd kill me says:
cool, huh
Free time is boredom says:
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I've discovered that I'm the missing link between men and women..... and as such, have no mate. says:

I've discovered that I'm the missing link between men and women..... and as such, have no mate. says:
not sure how to respond to that, eh?
Free time is boredom says:
no.
I've discovered that I'm the missing link between men and women..... and as such, have no mate. says:

I've discovered that I'm the missing link between men and women..... and as such, have no mate. says:
It's a good thing, see, that means I can't reproduce and further create the missing link
Free time is boredom says:
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I've discovered that I'm the missing link between men and women..... and as such, have no mate. says:

Free time is boredom says:
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Free time is boredom says:
shakes
Free time is boredom says:
Whatever.
I've discovered that I'm the missing link between men and women..... and as such, have no mate. says:

Free time is boredom says:
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I've discovered that I'm the missing link between men and women..... and as such, have no mate. says:
plus, I don't have to feel bad about giving up on finding someone to date
Free time is boredom says:
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I've discovered that I'm the missing link between men and women..... and as such, have no mate. says:
Yay!
Free time is boredom says:
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I've discovered that I'm the missing link between men and women..... and as such, have no mate. says:
or feel the guilt of bringing children into the world I hate
I've discovered that I'm the missing link between men and women..... and as such, have no mate. says:
thinking I ought to stop
Free time is boredom says:
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Free time is boredom says:
best choice right there.
I've discovered that I'm the missing link between men and women..... and as such, have no mate. says:
*sigh*
Free time is boredom says:
could I ask you to change your name?
Free time is boredom says:
I'm sorry...
Free time is boredom says:
I just...I don't understand how you can be so derogative abot yourself.
Meep says:
It's not about being derogative about myself
Meep says:
Not at all
Free time is boredom says:
I know
Free time is boredom says:
I'm sorry
Free time is boredom says:
it's your sn, you can choose it.
Meep says:
I mean, honestly, I know that I'm a freaking awesome catch
Meep says:
It's just annoying when no one picks up on that except me
Free time is boredom says:
I know
I miss the days of thinking of myself as something better than human. says:
I'm not so sure on that
Free time is boredom says:
what
I miss the days of thinking of myself as something better than human. says:
nothing
Free time is boredom says:
you okay?
I miss the days of thinking of myself as something better than human. says:
I will be
Free time is boredom says:
ok...


Was it so bad..... for me to try to just mask the pain with some humor?

I mean, I was fine. I truly was, humor is my way of dealing with crap, and then it was torn away from me....

The next six months need to be over, I need Mike, I need to be done here at Snow, I need to be moving on with my life.

I'm so freaking sick of the pain.... not exactly helping that this is mini BYU and everyone is freaking getting engaged. WE ARE CHILDREN. CHILDREN DO NOT NEED TO GET MARRIED.

Boys suck

Right, so right now every guy I have/had a crush on that I still talk to is currently in love with a girlfriend.

How freaking much does that suck? Majorly. Yes, I enjoy answering my own questions.

I mean, holy freaking crap.... how am I supposed to find a guy to date when.... the only ones that aren't taken..... that I know.... would be horrible to date.

Like.... I make this resolution that I won't kiss a guy till we've been dating at least a month, at least 10 dates.... and then for the life of me I can't find anyone that isn't taken.

Thanks, Snow, I love your five:one ratio of girls to guys.

Great Day

So today has been happy. Well..... sleeping.... not so much, in fact I'm wondering if sleep is just not my thing now. Last night I couldn't sleep, had a migraine, probably got four hours, woke up and wasn't tired, just feeling ill. Went to Stats, which was brilliant. I love statistics. Went to experimental analysis, was pretty good, not as good as usual.
Megan went home for the weekend.
Then I went with Kody to pick up his check from work and go to Walmart.
I just found the box elder bug that I saw earlier and killed it this time. I despise them.
Anyways, then we came here.... then we went to his place to watch Shawn of the Dead... then we came here to make food and watched Lady Death.... then we went to his place to give me music and play games. Speaking of which, there's this PS2 game that is freaking awesome. You play guitar. The guitar reminds me of the toy one I played with all the time (like, I got it on my birthday, and my mom wanted to get my picture taken professionally, and I refused to leave it at home, so it's in the picture with me). And the setup of the game is a lot like DDR.
And then Kody filled me in that it was four am.
Ha ha ha ha ha ha, I had no idea. It feels like noon. I thought it would be like.... one am ish..... ha, no where close. And like, I was supposed to be kicked out at one am. LOL.... oops. I swear, that hall doesn't fine anyone for ignoring rules.
Anyways, so then, walking home (a whole 200 feet or so) two deer ran past. Like, out of nowhere, and like, that's not something i'm used to, even in this town. So it was awesome. They got seperated in the parking lot and I had a thought to try to herd the more confused looking one back to it's friend, and then I remembered about the whole..... I can't walk 30 mph..... and running was well out of the question. So I hope they find each other.
Here's the thing: I'm not tired in the least. It's a problem I think. And I don't want to just drug myself to sleep.

Sorry Cows