Saturday, July 30, 2005

Rick

I'd appreciate it if you didn't read my blog. Just as a courtesy. I put up with your crap long enough.

Leaving

Yeah, this time, going on an alaskan cruise. Leaving early Sunday, I get back the following Sunday.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Goodbye Hair

Cut off seven inches today.... I know.... WHOA! Lol... so I found the girl that's cut my hair for the last like.... six years or so, and was like "Yeah, I don't know what I want to do, I just want it all off." This coming from me who has never gone above the shoulder since the horror of 3rd grade. Lol. This other lady came in during it and was like.... "Did ALL THAT HAIR come from YOU?"

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Explanation

So my poetry has died
It's as if my brain has fried
Ridiculous rhymes collide

Just a warning to those that read the poem that it's not glamorous, it's not routine, plus I spent five minutes on it... I really just wrote it for the same of writing it. So... doesn't necessarily make sense and my mind kinda jumps about.

No more want to listen
I'm just tired of being the silent one that is invisible. I dunno... like, this is the life I chose, and I continue to choose, but I've realized I need to talk more and I'm changing...
The stars continue to glisten
Life around me continues without notice of the changes going on within me.

No one knows me anymore
Again... I'm changing, which means no one... much less me, knows really who I am.

The gap is seeping through
A paradox in a way... not quite, but almost. A gap is lack of substance, lack of substance can't really seep... however, the gap can grow so in a way it seeps through material by removing it. It's that I'm a paradox. No one knows me... in my mind is a paradox. See.... I think people know me... and then, all of a sudden I realize they haven't a clue of who I am.... doesn't seem possible to me.... but it is.

You wouldn't say that it was true
Just an extention of the last line and that explanation.

No more thinking of love
It is said that you can't love someone when you don't know who you are... relationships are out of the question when I'm changing and we would grow apart. The people I used to find attractive no longer are.

It's nothing you would write of
My struggles aren't worth extra attention. I think that's how it should be. Those that are truly in hardship need it more than me. I'm important in my own small world. That's more than I need.

I'm just one you are above.
I'm not explaining that one. That was just for me.

Poems Elude Me

So my poetry has died
It's as if my brain has fried
Ridiculous rhymes collide

No more want to listen
The stars continue to glisten

No one knows me anymore

The gap is seeping through
You wouldn't say that it was true

No more thinking of love
It's nothing you would write of
I'm just one you are above.



That's the first thing I've written for.... long time.

Saturday, July 23, 2005

CHIPMUNK!

I got bit by a chipmunk!

BACK

Yeah, you heard me! I'm back, you fools!

Friday, July 15, 2005

Tom Cruise

Well, ya see, I get angry when ignorant people insult psychiatry.

"Dear Tom Cruise,
Your lack of belief in the existence of clinical depression tells me one thing: you didn’t spend $10. to see War Of The Worlds. If vitamins can possibly help me out of this spiraling funk, please let me know which ones. Dinos? Pebbles? Freds? Please, I’m crying out for help."
- Alton Brown, Food Network host of Good Eats and Iron Chef America

"If vitamins and exercise alone explain why Tom Cruise is so, um, knowledgeable and well-grounded, pass the Prozac."
- Chicago Tribune

Ok.... so.... could the celebrities all just like... get off their soap boxes for five minutes and look at how retarded they look?

Stop telling me how to vote. Stop telling me what religion to be in. All I want from you is one to four hours at a time pretending to be someone else. Someone I have feelings about, whether positive or negative. Brad Pitt... I have a lot of respect for. Like, yeah, he speaks up about starving kids.... but for one, that's a good cause, and for another..... he just adopted one. It's one thing when the actor just talks, but it's a whole different thing when they actually do something to help. Brad isn't just trying to look good for the camera, it's actually something he believes in and cares about. Plus, he's not just holding a benefit... he's devoting his life to a cause... raising his new kid.

Leaving




You're Watership Down!

by Richard Adams

Though many think of you as a bit young, even childish, you're
actually incredibly deep and complex. You show people the need to rethink their
assumptions, and confront them on everything from how they think to where they
build their houses. You might be one of the greatest people of all time. You'd
be recognized as such if you weren't always talking about talking rabbits.



Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.






You're Siddhartha!

by Hermann Hesse

You simply don't know what to believe, but you're willing to try
anything once. Western values, Eastern values, hedonism and minimalism, you've spent
some time in every camp. But you still don't have any idea what camp you belong in.
This makes you an individualist of the highest order, but also really lonely. It's
time to chill out under a tree. And realize that at least you believe in
ferries.



Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.






You're Hamlet!

by William Shakespeare

Something is rotten in your state. You don't know whether you would
rather live or die. And you keep speaking (unwittingly) in iambic pentameter. Even with
these setbacks, you have no idea just how awful life can get. With your whole family in
turmoil and your love interest soaked, there isn't exactly room for hope in your world.
No wonder you talk to yourself all the time!



Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.






You're One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest!

by Ken Kesey

You're crazy. This has led people to attempt to confine you to a safe
place so that you don't pose a danger to yourself or others. You feel like you pose a
great danger to the man (or maybe the woman) or whatever else is keeping you down. But
most of the time, you just end up being observed. Were you crazy before you were
confined?



Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.






You're The Giver!

by Lois Lowry

While you grew up with a sheltered childhood, you're pretty sure
everyone around you is even more sheltered. Suddenly, from out of nowhere, you were
tapped on the shoulder and transported to the real world. This made you horrified by
your prior upbringing and now you're tormented by how to reconcile these two lives.
Ultimately, the struggle comes down to that old free will issue. Choose
wisely.



Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.






You're 1984!

by George Orwell

You have this uncanny feeling that you're always being watched. Thus
life has become a bit of a show as you try to portray yourself as much more reputable
than you actually are. All around you, people seem to accept an unending stream of lies
and propaganda without flinching. Your only hope may be a star-crossed love affair, but
pain seems stonger than love. If you have any older brothers, be very wary of
them.



Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.






You're Fahrenheit 451!

by Ray Bradbury

Having wanted to be a firefighter much of your life, you've recently
discovered the job wasn't exactly what you were looking for. While ignorance seems like
the result of oppression, it all began with people just wanting to be ignorant. As you
realize more about the sordid world around you, you decide to watch less TV and work on
your memorization skills. Though your memory will save you in the end, don't forget to
practice running from dogs as well.



Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.





You're Egypt!

Curator of ancient mystical secrets, your life on the surface is fairly
typical these days.  Though you are in denial about more things than most people.
 Nevertheless, you're trying to convince people that you're safe despite your more
volatile and unstable times that seem to be behind you.  You like cats a whole lot.
 You'd probably really appreciate The Blue
Pyramid.

Take
the Country Quiz at the href="http://bluepyramid.org">Blue Pyramid



http://www.tomcruiseisnuts.com/home.php

Anyways, that was to remind you that I'm still obsessed.

BUT!!! The real reason for posting is to clue you in that I'm gonna be in Vail Colorado until next Friday, leaving in.... about three hours. I gotta pack, but I planned on staying up late anyways cause... let's face it, I have a long car ride ahead of me. Stay safe, all.

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Ha ha ha ha ha ha oh so addicted

Ricky...

EANCIOLALA (1:13:04 AM): hey
EANCIOLALA (1:15:12 AM): hey

EANCIOLALA (1:15:32 AM): read my email to you and my mom
SardonicGenious (1:15:49 AM): k
EANCIOLALA (1:15:59 AM): k
EANCIOLALA (1:18:36 AM): my mom told me to "dump the pacepicantesauce"
EANCIOLALA (1:18:42 AM): I wont
EANCIOLALA (1:19:14 AM): she told me to forget about NIN
EANCIOLALA (1:19:31 AM): its "blackboard"
EANCIOLALA (1:20:02 AM): she was a teacher of school and piano(music) lol
EANCIOLALA (1:20:22 AM): that I agree with
EANCIOLALA (1:20:39 AM): marrying you is tough
EANCIOLALA (1:21:33 AM): I dont know what to say
SardonicGenious (1:22:12 AM): I can't get into hotmail
EANCIOLALA (1:22:22 AM): oh
EANCIOLALA (1:22:31 AM): why you up
EANCIOLALA (1:22:55 AM): glad
EANCIOLALA (1:23:02 AM): I cant sleep
SardonicGenious (1:23:58 AM): I don't know
EANCIOLALA (1:24:33 AM): just had a dream about trying to make me a model and not being able to cook meat despite vast RESOURCES
EANCIOLALA (1:24:59 AM): Im glad
EANCIOLALA (1:25:05 AM): I love you
EANCIOLALA (1:25:09 AM): alot
SardonicGenious (1:25:12 AM): hmm
SardonicGenious (1:25:22 AM): why does you mom want you to get rid of me?
EANCIOLALA (1:25:39 AM): theyre crazy
EANCIOLALA (1:25:46 AM): read the email
SardonicGenious (1:26:02 AM): can't get into email
EANCIOLALA (1:26:12 AM): ok tomorrow
EANCIOLALA (1:26:26 AM): is two hours ago away
EANCIOLALA (1:26:31 AM): lol
EANCIOLALA (1:26:42 AM): 1 hour your time
EANCIOLALA (1:26:50 AM): Utah time
SardonicGenious (1:26:50 AM): no, it's already here
SardonicGenious (1:26:57 AM): 1:26 am
EANCIOLALA (1:27:07 AM): I meant backwards
EANCIOLALA (1:27:22 AM): anyway
EANCIOLALA (1:28:03 AM): still talking to me
EANCIOLALA (1:28:11 AM): ?
SardonicGenious (1:28:49 AM): oh, right
SardonicGenious (1:28:53 AM): missed a word
EANCIOLALA (1:29:05 AM): I thought you were leaving me for therapy"
EANCIOLALA (1:29:14 AM): lol
EANCIOLALA (1:29:26 AM): ok got it
SardonicGenious (1:29:37 AM): I like therapy
EANCIOLALA (1:29:45 AM): not me
EANCIOLALA (1:29:56 AM): theyre all out to get me
SardonicGenious (1:30:06 AM): no they aren't
EANCIOLALA (1:30:10 AM): Im not a girl
SardonicGenious (1:30:30 AM): brb
EANCIOLALA (1:30:38 AM): Im a freaking smart manipulation WIZARD
EANCIOLALA (1:30:43 AM): OK
EANCIOLALA (1:32:12 AM): Ive been with PRETTY girls in the hospital
EANCIOLALA (1:32:27 AM): they can never make up their mind
EANCIOLALA (1:32:53 AM): they HATE me
EANCIOLALA (1:33:22 AM): I tell them stupid things like "wear water, it suits you"
EANCIOLALA (1:34:13 AM): And they are like, I smoke crank and wear thongs but somehow Im still better than you
EANCIOLALA (1:34:24 AM): right
EANCIOLALA (1:34:37 AM): play me cards and Ill massacre you
SardonicGenious (1:34:47 AM): ok
SardonicGenious (1:34:48 AM): back
EANCIOLALA (1:34:56 AM): I have "eights"
EANCIOLALA (1:35:00 AM): wb
EANCIOLALA (1:35:04 AM): lol
SardonicGenious (1:35:06 AM): thanks
EANCIOLALA (1:36:03 AM): so, whats the weather like
SardonicGenious (1:36:13 AM): boring
EANCIOLALA (1:36:15 AM): it continues to rain here
EANCIOLALA (1:36:37 AM): did you read the "above"
SardonicGenious (1:36:42 AM): yes
EANCIOLALA (1:36:49 AM): funny huh
SardonicGenious (1:37:09 AM): no
EANCIOLALA (1:37:20 AM): thats therapy for you
EANCIOLALA (1:37:25 AM): lol
EANCIOLALA (1:37:36 AM): arts and crafts disagreement
EANCIOLALA (1:37:45 AM): I cant live with it
EANCIOLALA (1:38:40 AM): you there?
SardonicGenious (1:39:10 AM): yes
EANCIOLALA (1:39:10 AM): Ill make you a heart pin
EANCIOLALA (1:39:17 AM): there
EANCIOLALA (1:39:21 AM): therapy
SardonicGenious (1:39:24 AM): no
SardonicGenious (1:39:28 AM): that's not therapy
EANCIOLALA (1:39:31 AM): lol
EANCIOLALA (1:39:36 AM): right
EANCIOLALA (1:40:46 AM): hospitalization, commit electro convulsive treatment, the chair, screaming, breaking my way out of straps by breaking my glasses and using them to pick the locks csi style
EANCIOLALA (1:40:57 AM): you call that therapy
SardonicGenious (1:41:03 AM): no
EANCIOLALA (1:41:16 AM): shut in a room
SardonicGenious (1:41:23 AM): no, that's not therapy
EANCIOLALA (1:41:23 AM): neither do I
SardonicGenious (1:41:43 AM): I meant just talking to someone
EANCIOLALA (1:41:45 AM): we agree on the obvious
EANCIOLALA (1:41:45 AM): are you a therapist?
SardonicGenious (1:41:48 AM): figuring things out
SardonicGenious (1:41:51 AM): not yet
EANCIOLALA (1:42:09 AM): I talk to you
EANCIOLALA (1:43:11 AM): oh
EANCIOLALA (1:43:11 AM): not in the loop yet
EANCIOLALA (1:43:11 AM): understood
SardonicGenious (1:43:20 AM): yeah, but a good therapist would know how to help you sort things out
EANCIOLALA (1:44:00 AM): I had a therapist
EANCIOLALA (1:44:26 AM): I got haldol
EANCIOLALA (1:44:26 AM): and strapped
EANCIOLALA (1:44:36 AM): its easy to commit a girl
EANCIOLALA (1:44:43 AM): they dont care
EANCIOLALA (1:45:03 AM): theyre happy to get thorazine
EANCIOLALA (1:45:10 AM): like candy
EANCIOLALA (1:45:17 AM): drugs have become the norm
SardonicGenious (1:45:35 AM): Why are you so prejudiced?
EANCIOLALA (1:45:47 AM): its a lie
EANCIOLALA (1:45:47 AM): Ive seen people abuse them
EANCIOLALA (1:46:25 AM): and not just the lower class
EANCIOLALA (1:46:35 AM): drinking, taking lots of prescription pills driving around with shotguns and killing everything that moves
EANCIOLALA (1:46:51 AM): they dont even know how to handle a gun
EANCIOLALA (1:47:41 AM): its a game to them
EANCIOLALA (1:47:41 AM): thats how drugs became standard issue
EANCIOLALA (1:47:41 AM): and doctors became monsters
SardonicGenious (1:47:54 AM): why do you stereotype?
EANCIOLALA (1:48:00 AM): the rich
EANCIOLALA (1:48:06 AM): dont think the poor arent involved either
EANCIOLALA (1:48:18 AM): ccrank laboratories
EANCIOLALA (1:48:31 AM): huffing
EANCIOLALA (1:48:38 AM): philosophy
EANCIOLALA (1:48:43 AM): the "con"
EANCIOLALA (1:48:55 AM): I understand this shit perfectly
EANCIOLALA (1:49:00 AM): I am a doctor
EANCIOLALA (1:49:14 AM): of reality
EANCIOLALA (1:49:19 AM): drugs are not candy
SardonicGenious (1:49:21 AM): Why are you so prejudiced?
EANCIOLALA (1:49:28 AM): blink182 are not cool
EANCIOLALA (1:49:56 AM): its stupid
EANCIOLALA (1:50:11 AM): I knew the kids two grades younger than me were fucked
EANCIOLALA (1:50:32 AM): I dont even know what happened to those younger than that
EANCIOLALA (1:50:45 AM): Im not jim morrison
EANCIOLALA (1:50:57 AM): or the guy from farenheit 911
EANCIOLALA (1:51:03 AM): OR a blogger
EANCIOLALA (1:51:09 AM): this is all stupidity
SardonicGenious (1:51:19 AM): I hate Michael Moore
EANCIOLALA (1:51:24 AM): its a test that....nevermind
SardonicGenious (1:51:28 AM): why are you so prejudiced
EANCIOLALA (1:51:30 AM): me too
EANCIOLALA (1:51:36 AM): Im not
SardonicGenious (1:51:43 AM): You hate the Chinese
EANCIOLALA (1:51:43 AM): Im pure love
EANCIOLALA (1:51:50 AM): I dont
SardonicGenious (1:51:53 AM): You hate doctors
EANCIOLALA (1:51:58 AM): I love Amy Tan
SardonicGenious (1:52:04 AM): You seem to see women as objects
EANCIOLALA (1:52:04 AM): I cant
EANCIOLALA (1:52:12 AM): thats true
SardonicGenious (1:52:24 AM): You think people that believe in God are idiots
EANCIOLALA (1:52:38 AM): my eldest sister is treated like an object by her redneck husband
EANCIOLALA (1:52:47 AM): I dont
EANCIOLALA (1:53:14 AM): who left me drunk and for dead ina frat with every guy on her wedding night
EANCIOLALA (1:53:30 AM): he could have done something
EANCIOLALA (1:53:41 AM): I got in a fight with all of them
SardonicGenious (1:53:49 AM): You overgeneralize
EANCIOLALA (1:53:52 AM): yhey never fight me
EANCIOLALA (1:54:05 AM): their pussies they gang up
SardonicGenious (1:54:09 AM): You have a bad experience and then think that anyone like it is terrible and the same way
EANCIOLALA (1:54:25 AM): to the point where the whole world ganged up
EANCIOLALA (1:54:37 AM): and decieved everyone
SardonicGenious (1:54:42 AM): Not everyone is against you
EANCIOLALA (1:54:54 AM): watch this......right!
EANCIOLALA (1:55:06 AM): its gtten out of control
EANCIOLALA (1:55:24 AM): this is what happens when you beat up the bully
EANCIOLALA (1:55:44 AM): I had to "pick on"the chinese
EANCIOLALA (1:55:59 AM): the guys from xfiles copied me
EANCIOLALA (1:56:06 AM): they all copied me
EANCIOLALA (1:56:12 AM): every guy
SardonicGenious (1:56:22 AM): Why do you need to pick on the Chinese?
EANCIOLALA (1:56:22 AM): not docs, right!
SardonicGenious (1:56:34 AM): Every guy doesn't know you
EANCIOLALA (1:56:34 AM): theyll be the bully then
SardonicGenious (1:56:42 AM): they can't copy you if they don't know you
EANCIOLALA (1:56:46 AM): watch this , Right!
EANCIOLALA (1:56:52 AM): Im a legend
SardonicGenious (1:56:57 AM): No you aren't
EANCIOLALA (1:57:00 AM): copying grows
SardonicGenious (1:57:00 AM): Let it go
EANCIOLALA (1:57:10 AM): fast
SardonicGenious (1:57:19 AM): Rick the world does not revolve around you
EANCIOLALA (1:57:31 AM): wanna make a bet dear
EANCIOLALA (1:57:49 AM): forget about this crap
EANCIOLALA (1:58:17 AM): I should have never beat up the bully for the geek
EANCIOLALA (1:58:33 AM): he just gets replaced by someone else
EANCIOLALA (1:58:41 AM): THAT easy
EANCIOLALA (1:59:00 AM): I already beat up THAT bully
EANCIOLALA (1:59:05 AM): commit
EANCIOLALA (1:59:14 AM): Im on my own now
SardonicGenious (1:59:22 AM): What bully?
EANCIOLALA (1:59:37 AM): typical girl answer
SardonicGenious (1:59:42 AM): Typical?
EANCIOLALA (1:59:51 AM): that "brilliant" in your blog
SardonicGenious (1:59:52 AM): Only cause you explain nothing
EANCIOLALA (2:00:06 AM): its that bully then
EANCIOLALA (2:00:12 AM): copy on me
SardonicGenious (2:00:21 AM): I don't want to freaking copy you
EANCIOLALA (2:00:27 AM): I already erased my old blog
SardonicGenious (2:00:31 AM): Yeah, I know
EANCIOLALA (2:00:34 AM): you made that
SardonicGenious (2:00:40 AM): No I didn't
EANCIOLALA (2:00:42 AM): ??
EANCIOLALA (2:00:54 AM): someone copied me
SardonicGenious (2:01:02 AM): Someone, probably
SardonicGenious (2:01:06 AM): But not everyone
EANCIOLALA (2:01:15 AM): it traveled quickly through porn the internet and spring break
EANCIOLALA (2:01:28 AM): like a virus
EANCIOLALA (2:01:40 AM): till it globalized
EANCIOLALA (2:01:54 AM): now their looking for help from the chinese
SardonicGenious (2:01:54 AM): No
EANCIOLALA (2:02:00 AM): against me
SardonicGenious (2:02:09 AM): The world is NOT against you
SardonicGenious (2:02:21 AM): no matter what your mind tells you, it's not
SardonicGenious (2:02:30 AM): you don't always have to fight everything
EANCIOLALA (2:02:43 AM): men cant run things anymore
EANCIOLALA (2:02:43 AM): any of them
EANCIOLALA (2:02:44 AM): I keep "beating up" the bully
EANCIOLALA (2:03:10 AM): thats true
EANCIOLALA (2:03:10 AM): thats my problem right there
EANCIOLALA (2:03:35 AM): you pegged it
EANCIOLALA (2:03:40 AM): so marry me
EANCIOLALA (2:03:40 AM): and well have infinite power
EANCIOLALA (2:03:47 AM): lol
EANCIOLALA (2:03:56 AM): join the freaking dark side already
EANCIOLALA (2:04:14 AM): its pretty compared to whats happened out there
SardonicGenious (2:04:32 AM): I don't want infinite power
EANCIOLALA (2:04:35 AM): lost you again
SardonicGenious (2:04:36 AM): and I don't want to marry you
SardonicGenious (2:05:00 AM): and I don't care how screwed up my life gets, I wouldn't "join the dark side"
EANCIOLALA (2:05:03 AM): then your dumb
EANCIOLALA (2:05:04 AM): youll get a hand
EANCIOLALA (2:05:11 AM): like luke
SardonicGenious (2:05:16 AM): I don't care what I get
SardonicGenious (2:05:29 AM): But I'd prefer not to be someone who will use me as an object
EANCIOLALA (2:05:50 AM): and star wars
EANCIOLALA (2:05:51 AM): and be happy for no reason
EANCIOLALA (2:05:51 AM): brave new world
EANCIOLALA (2:05:57 AM): I wouldnt touch you
EANCIOLALA (2:06:04 AM): maybe a kiss
EANCIOLALA (2:06:11 AM): if yoou worked for it
EANCIOLALA (2:06:29 AM): you
EANCIOLALA (2:06:45 AM): I am lovable
SardonicGenious (2:07:05 AM): Maybe if you like, worked at all at trying to see reality
EANCIOLALA (2:07:20 AM): if you know me
EANCIOLALA (2:07:20 AM): nut Im the Bully ASS kick too
SardonicGenious (2:07:23 AM): I hate star wars
SardonicGenious (2:07:33 AM): I don't want a bully
EANCIOLALA (2:08:01 AM): but
EANCIOLALA (2:08:01 AM): and its a bully FRENZY
EANCIOLALA (2:08:01 AM): Im not a bully
EANCIOLALA (2:08:23 AM): star wars is stupid
EANCIOLALA (2:08:46 AM): nobody owns anything except jabba the hut
EANCIOLALA (2:08:46 AM): and everyone has technology
EANCIOLALA (2:09:00 AM): I dont see how the rebel jedis got light sabers
SardonicGenious (2:09:04 AM): You freaking just said you're the bully
EANCIOLALA (2:09:16 AM): did they save up
SardonicGenious (2:09:18 AM): you keep contradicting yourself, I don't know what to believe
EANCIOLALA (2:09:46 AM): from doing what
EANCIOLALA (2:09:46 AM): I said Im the bully ass kick
EANCIOLALA (2:11:31 AM): meaning i beat up the bully
EANCIOLALA (2:11:31 AM): for the little guy
EANCIOLALA (2:11:31 AM): then other guys take the credit for no bully and get the girl
EANCIOLALA (2:11:31 AM): I hate girls
EANCIOLALA (2:11:40 AM): for loving me so much
EANCIOLALA (2:11:40 AM): theyre crazy
EANCIOLALA (2:11:40 AM): they always think someone else did it
EANCIOLALA (2:11:40 AM): I did it so many times its sad
EANCIOLALA (2:11:40 AM): you dont have to fight to beat up the bully
EANCIOLALA (2:11:40 AM): you just have to be smart
EANCIOLALA (2:11:54 AM): watch doogie howser
EANCIOLALA (2:12:07 AM): they keep losing
EANCIOLALA (2:12:29 AM): they sicked doctor and therapy on me
EANCIOLALA (2:12:29 AM): they have to be the bully
EANCIOLALA (2:12:43 AM): its the way society works
EANCIOLALA (2:12:49 AM): its based on the bully system
EANCIOLALA (2:13:00 AM): its the way society doesnt work
EANCIOLALA (2:13:17 AM): and people are in perpetual disagreement
EANCIOLALA (2:13:35 AM): I feugn to speak two or three words growing up
EANCIOLALA (2:13:42 AM): feign
EANCIOLALA (2:13:54 AM): and now I cant shut up
EANCIOLALA (2:14:08 AM): and I wont repeat things like everybody else
EANCIOLALA (2:14:18 AM): I learned that in debate
SardonicGenious (2:14:26 AM): mm
EANCIOLALA (2:14:29 AM): I dont know
EANCIOLALA (2:14:34 AM): I still get lost
EANCIOLALA (2:14:43 AM): mm
EANCIOLALA (2:15:24 AM): I need love
SardonicGenious (2:15:28 AM): I know
EANCIOLALA (2:15:32 AM): not sex or violence
EANCIOLALA (2:15:41 AM): like every other guy
SardonicGenious (2:15:43 AM): but I don't think I'm the one for you to marry
EANCIOLALA (2:16:01 AM): everyone plays the scape goat
EANCIOLALA (2:16:13 AM): theyre all in perpetual disagreement
EANCIOLALA (2:16:28 AM): you would if I was the bully
EANCIOLALA (2:16:34 AM): its that sad
EANCIOLALA (2:16:45 AM): the bully always gets married
EANCIOLALA (2:17:03 AM): I cant beat up the bully for everyone
EANCIOLALA (2:17:13 AM): I guess I wont get you
EANCIOLALA (2:17:22 AM): figure it out
SardonicGenious (2:17:44 AM): No
SardonicGenious (2:17:49 AM): I hate bullies
EANCIOLALA (2:17:57 AM): no what
SardonicGenious (2:18:00 AM): but I also hate stereotypes
SardonicGenious (2:18:08 AM): No I wouldn't marry you if you were the bully
EANCIOLALA (2:18:23 AM): right, theyre all a bully then
EANCIOLALA (2:18:30 AM): I cant win
EANCIOLALA (2:18:35 AM): theyll lie
EANCIOLALA (2:18:59 AM): and amke you a doctor
EANCIOLALA (2:19:05 AM): make
EANCIOLALA (2:19:13 AM): or a therapist
SardonicGenious (2:19:23 AM): I plan to be a therapist
EANCIOLALA (2:19:23 AM): and the system will repaet
EANCIOLALA (2:19:32 AM): repeat
SardonicGenious (2:19:32 AM): because it's helped me
SardonicGenious (2:19:36 AM): and it helps most people
EANCIOLALA (2:19:36 AM): th end
SardonicGenious (2:19:49 AM): and I like the idea of helping people
SardonicGenious (2:19:51 AM): not just complaining
EANCIOLALA (2:20:07 AM): what helps is that i kicked the bully ass for you younger people already
EANCIOLALA (2:20:20 AM): thats what moves society
EANCIOLALA (2:20:27 AM): when I quit
EANCIOLALA (2:20:35 AM): everyybody fucked
EANCIOLALA (2:20:53 AM): you cant layt this garbage without me
EANCIOLALA (2:21:05 AM): you already got drugs
EANCIOLALA (2:21:11 AM): from ME
EANCIOLALA (2:21:17 AM): you need them
EANCIOLALA (2:21:36 AM): they lied
EANCIOLALA (2:21:44 AM): they all COPIED me
EANCIOLALA (2:22:13 AM): theyre not cute already
EANCIOLALA (2:22:23 AM): leo dicaprio
EANCIOLALA (2:22:31 AM): none of them
EANCIOLALA (2:22:38 AM): I was
EANCIOLALA (2:22:47 AM): cute
EANCIOLALA (2:22:59 AM): how do you think I kicked the bully ass
EANCIOLALA (2:23:09 AM): they took the credit
EANCIOLALA (2:23:17 AM): and married model
EANCIOLALA (2:23:22 AM): the end
EANCIOLALA (2:23:42 AM): its copy
EANCIOLALA (2:23:47 AM): its easy
EANCIOLALA (2:23:54 AM): easier than you think
EANCIOLALA (2:24:09 AM): Im not trying to convinv¡ce you to marry me
EANCIOLALA (2:24:20 AM): just bitch out the world
EANCIOLALA (2:24:34 AM): for being a beotch
EANCIOLALA (2:24:41 AM): or whatec¡ver
EANCIOLALA (2:24:49 AM): they cant copy me
EANCIOLALA (2:24:58 AM): Ill never shut up
EANCIOLALA (2:25:08 AM): its unfair
EANCIOLALA (2:25:25 AM): especially when it gets to the stock market
EANCIOLALA (2:25:32 AM): lol
EANCIOLALA (2:25:50 AM): ita the copy party
EANCIOLALA (2:25:56 AM): its
EANCIOLALA (2:26:10 AM): doctor everybody
EANCIOLALA (2:26:15 AM): their all involved
EANCIOLALA (2:26:23 AM): I shoulda never helped the geek
EANCIOLALA (2:26:30 AM): its nin then
EANCIOLALA (2:26:38 AM): trent reznor
EANCIOLALA (2:26:47 AM): hes famnous noiw
EANCIOLALA (2:26:56 AM): dumb
EANCIOLALA (2:27:02 AM): they all sold out already
EANCIOLALA (2:27:10 AM): and drugged everybody
EANCIOLALA (2:27:29 AM): dont think brad pitt didnt copy me either
EANCIOLALA (2:27:38 AM): its THAT copy party
EANCIOLALA (2:27:46 AM): the EARTH
EANCIOLALA (2:27:53 AM): its that easy to copy
EANCIOLALA (2:27:57 AM): its unfair
EANCIOLALA (2:28:08 AM): to be smart and cute
EANCIOLALA (2:28:20 AM): theyll all copy you
EANCIOLALA (2:28:27 AM): FOREVER
SardonicGenious (2:28:35 AM): not everyone
SardonicGenious (2:28:47 AM): and not forever cause I'll be forgotten someday
EANCIOLALA (2:28:51 AM): domt let girls "dream" about you
EANCIOLALA (2:29:21 AM): and worry sick about your "hair" condition
EANCIOLALA (2:29:30 AM): its doom
EANCIOLALA (2:29:41 AM): theyll copy you and take the girl
EANCIOLALA (2:29:56 AM): theyre actually all wimps
EANCIOLALA (2:30:09 AM): doctor included
EANCIOLALA (2:30:20 AM): I need a cigarette
EANCIOLALA (2:30:27 AM): "therapy"
EANCIOLALA (2:30:34 AM): lol
EANCIOLALA (2:31:55 AM): Il get THe Good Company already
EANCIOLALA (2:31:59 AM): porn
SardonicGenious (2:32:11 AM): Are you trying to push me away or something?
EANCIOLALA (2:32:13 AM): they cant not lay me chic
EANCIOLALA (2:32:24 AM): for beating up the bully
EANCIOLALA (2:32:31 AM): maybe....
EANCIOLALA (2:32:36 AM): brb
EANCIOLALA (2:32:50 AM): I LOVE you
SardonicGenious (2:34:02 AM): you don't even know me
EANCIOLALA (2:37:40 AM): I dont
EANCIOLALA (2:37:52 AM): Ill be honest
EANCIOLALA (2:38:00 AM): like a schmuck
EANCIOLALA (2:38:13 AM): I got "conned"
SardonicGenious (2:38:20 AM): mm
EANCIOLALA (2:38:38 AM): Im carzy
EANCIOLALA (2:38:44 AM): crazy
EANCIOLALA (2:39:01 AM): carzy
EANCIOLALA (2:39:31 AM): more fitting
EANCIOLALA (2:39:37 AM): my demise
EANCIOLALA (2:40:27 AM): shelly?
SardonicGenious (2:40:30 AM): you don't have to be
EANCIOLALA (2:41:49 AM): I wont GIVE UP
EANCIOLALA (2:41:57 AM): Till its over
EANCIOLALA (2:42:02 AM): OVER
SardonicGenious (2:42:14 AM): till what's over?
EANCIOLALA (2:43:00 AM): sickness
EANCIOLALA (2:43:06 AM): delusion
EANCIOLALA (2:43:16 AM): any other bird
EANCIOLALA (2:43:31 AM): of a feather or something
SardonicGenious (2:44:17 AM): mm
EANCIOLALA (2:44:42 AM): I cant love you anyway
EANCIOLALA (2:44:50 AM): they wont let me
EANCIOLALA (2:45:58 AM): enjoy your LAPTOP
SardonicGenious (2:46:04 AM): ok
EANCIOLALA (2:46:18 AM): not me
EANCIOLALA (2:46:44 AM): Ill enjoy you
EANCIOLALA (2:47:15 AM): I already had to FIGHT insurmountable odds to find you
SardonicGenious (2:47:30 AM): mm
EANCIOLALA (2:48:10 AM): I apologize if I scare you with my words
EANCIOLALA (2:49:06 AM): I need some milk
SardonicGenious (2:49:12 AM): It's not scary
EANCIOLALA (2:49:12 AM): hold on
EANCIOLALA (2:49:24 AM): is it?
SardonicGenious (2:49:26 AM): just... I hate stereotypes
EANCIOLALA (2:49:51 AM): I dont know what your talking about
EANCIOLALA (2:50:04 AM): like the PEnguin?
EANCIOLALA (2:50:35 AM): is there a Laugh out quiet
EANCIOLALA (2:50:39 AM): loq
EANCIOLALA (2:50:46 AM): I need one
EANCIOLALA (2:50:49 AM): lol
EANCIOLALA (2:51:11 AM): like villian
EANCIOLALA (2:51:21 AM): like "bully"
EANCIOLALA (2:51:41 AM): they are all sterotypes
EANCIOLALA (2:51:49 AM): stereotypes
EANCIOLALA (2:51:55 AM): like GOd
EANCIOLALA (2:52:11 AM): Its infinite power that
SardonicGenious (2:52:13 AM): I hate stereotypes
EANCIOLALA (2:52:22 AM): I wont beat up that bully
EANCIOLALA (2:52:31 AM): I already did
EANCIOLALA (2:52:38 AM): its Utah
EANCIOLALA (2:52:45 AM): the end.
EANCIOLALA (2:53:22 AM): maybe he beat me up
EANCIOLALA (2:53:35 AM): its existentialism then
EANCIOLALA (2:53:44 AM): I need milk
EANCIOLALA (2:53:49 AM): brb
EANCIOLALA (2:53:56 AM): or sardonic
EANCIOLALA (2:55:21 AM): Princeton and Harvard were easy bullys
EANCIOLALA (2:55:33 AM): so were the sats and iq
EANCIOLALA (2:55:38 AM): SATS
EANCIOLALA (2:55:55 AM): standardized testing is being phased out
EANCIOLALA (2:56:31 AM): they are basing aptitude by internet abilty and awareness now
EANCIOLALA (2:56:53 AM): youll see how the future works on YOU
EANCIOLALA (2:57:08 AM): accessibility
EANCIOLALA (2:57:38 AM): I already BLOGGED it
EANCIOLALA (2:57:56 AM): I can find ANYTHING
EANCIOLALA (2:58:02 AM): I found you
EANCIOLALA (2:58:07 AM): and love
EANCIOLALA (2:58:14 AM): I dont care what you say
EANCIOLALA (2:58:23 AM): I read your writing
EANCIOLALA (2:58:31 AM): end of story
EANCIOLALA (2:58:41 AM): on Shellys World
EANCIOLALA (2:58:49 AM): that writing
EANCIOLALA (2:59:01 AM): not your creative writing
EANCIOLALA (2:59:11 AM): not your cynic writing
EANCIOLALA (2:59:19 AM): thats MY writing
EANCIOLALA (2:59:29 AM): on That writing
EANCIOLALA (2:59:36 AM): Shellys world
EANCIOLALA (2:59:45 AM): Im in love with her
EANCIOLALA (2:59:49 AM): You
EANCIOLALA (3:00:19 AM): I know this shit
EANCIOLALA (3:00:31 AM): by King Cheese
EANCIOLALA (3:00:38 AM): if not God
SardonicGenious (3:01:14 AM): what writing?
EANCIOLALA (3:01:42 AM): forget it
EANCIOLALA (3:01:51 AM): your other blog
SardonicGenious (3:03:34 AM): which one, give me the address
EANCIOLALA (3:04:30 AM): Ramblings of Shelly
SardonicGenious (3:04:41 AM): ah
EANCIOLALA (3:05:16 AM): that writing
EANCIOLALA (3:05:23 AM): the other stuff
EANCIOLALA (3:05:30 AM): impressive
SardonicGenious (3:05:49 AM): ah
EANCIOLALA (3:06:12 AM): your fucked up
SardonicGenious (3:06:28 AM): thanks
EANCIOLALA (3:06:36 AM): your welcome
SardonicGenious (3:06:58 AM): that was sarcastic, by the way
EANCIOLALA (3:07:12 AM): ok I was joking then
SardonicGenious (3:07:18 AM): No
EANCIOLALA (3:07:25 AM): I meant it as a compliment
EANCIOLALA (3:07:41 AM): then

SardonicGenious (3:07:47 AM): You can't say something and then when it's not accepted just say it was a joke
EANCIOLALA (3:08:00 AM): I can
EANCIOLALA (3:08:03 AM): I did
EANCIOLALA (3:08:15 AM): I wouldnt really
SardonicGenious (3:08:32 AM): ok, you can, but I don't accept it
EANCIOLALA (3:08:49 AM): Im being evasive
EANCIOLALA (3:08:56 AM): figure it out
EANCIOLALA (3:09:03 AM): now you know me
EANCIOLALA (3:09:20 AM): with your infinite power?
EANCIOLALA (3:09:48 AM): see..
EANCIOLALA (3:09:59 AM): I can play your games
SardonicGenious (3:10:08 AM): I'm not freaking playing games
EANCIOLALA (3:10:25 AM): what are you doing hun?
SardonicGenious (3:10:42 AM): what?
EANCIOLALA (3:10:54 AM): what?
EANCIOLALA (3:11:05 AM): keep fishing
EANCIOLALA (3:11:14 AM): and youlll get a bite
EANCIOLALA (3:11:29 AM): no pun intended
SardonicGenious (3:11:49 AM): I don't want a bite
EANCIOLALA (3:12:14 AM): neutrality, always a good bet in confusion
EANCIOLALA (3:13:05 AM): then why do you write dear?
EANCIOLALA (3:13:47 AM): you dont have to play my games
SardonicGenious (3:14:00 AM): I write for myself
EANCIOLALA (3:14:10 AM): not possible
SardonicGenious (3:14:17 AM): I write cause otherwise I'd freaking go insane
EANCIOLALA (3:14:20 AM): unless your count dracula
SardonicGenious (3:14:29 AM): He doesn't even exist
EANCIOLALA (3:14:32 AM): cant hide in colliquilisms
EANCIOLALA (3:14:53 AM): its not historiacally or modernly fitting
EANCIOLALA (3:15:08 AM): right
SardonicGenious (3:15:14 AM): Not everything is done for you
EANCIOLALA (3:15:17 AM): beat the writing
SardonicGenious (3:15:23 AM): I don't want to!
EANCIOLALA (3:15:35 AM): I cant self help my way out of everything
SardonicGenious (3:15:45 AM): Then GET HELP
EANCIOLALA (3:15:49 AM): im not against you
SardonicGenious (3:15:57 AM): You sure seem to be
EANCIOLALA (3:16:02 AM): I dont need it
SardonicGenious (3:16:08 AM): Yes you do
EANCIOLALA (3:16:29 AM): everyone tells me that so its not logically possible
SardonicGenious (3:16:34 AM): WHAT?
SardonicGenious (3:16:45 AM): So if people agree on something it's automatically not possible?
EANCIOLALA (3:16:47 AM): how can you all be ninja against one soft opponent
SardonicGenious (3:16:56 AM): people agree that there is gravity
SardonicGenious (3:17:01 AM): that mean it's not possible?
SardonicGenious (3:17:07 AM): That makes no sense
EANCIOLALA (3:17:09 AM): it defeats the purpose of STEALTH
SardonicGenious (3:17:22 AM): I'm not against anyone
EANCIOLALA (3:17:33 AM): Bully philosophy
SardonicGenious (3:17:33 AM): I'm just frustrated, having a freaking bad day, and tired of YOUR games
EANCIOLALA (3:17:42 AM): self help is a bully
SardonicGenious (3:17:48 AM): No it's not
EANCIOLALA (3:17:53 AM): tony robbins
EANCIOLALA (3:17:58 AM): abuse hides
EANCIOLALA (3:18:04 AM): in success
SardonicGenious (3:18:05 AM): You just keep screwing yourself over, don't you?
EANCIOLALA (3:18:11 AM): I have friends
SardonicGenious (3:18:26 AM): Then you lied to me
EANCIOLALA (3:18:32 AM): I erote their papers for them
SardonicGenious (3:18:32 AM): before you told me you had none
SardonicGenious (3:18:36 AM): so which is it?
SardonicGenious (3:18:43 AM): I'm tired of the lies
EANCIOLALA (3:18:46 AM): your my friend
EANCIOLALA (3:18:56 AM): lord of the flies
SardonicGenious (3:18:57 AM): You didn't write papers for me
EANCIOLALA (3:19:01 AM): raed it
SardonicGenious (3:19:04 AM): I have
SardonicGenious (3:19:06 AM): loved it
EANCIOLALA (3:19:07 AM): I would
EANCIOLALA (3:19:17 AM): ok
EANCIOLALA (3:19:27 AM): calm down
SardonicGenious (3:19:36 AM): I gotta go to bed
SardonicGenious (3:19:42 AM): my parents are gonna flip out
EANCIOLALA (3:19:58 AM): ok

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Your power is: Clairvoyance>


Explanation: Your power is that you can
look into the future and see what is coming.
How far and long you can look is all depending
on your skill level. This can, as all powers,
be used in both evil and good. Even if it may
seem like a boring ability it is a huge
responsibility for the carrier, becase they are
constantly tempted with doing the wrongs deeds
(e.g. cheat on a test). It takes high morals to
not be brought down with it.

Therefor you fit with this power quite well.
You take responsibility and do what is the
right thing to do. This does not make you a
saint, since you're only human after all. But
it makes a trustworthy person and you are loyal
to camrades and/or team mates. In school you
were probably a good student. If you were
social varies from person to person, but most
clairvoyant people tend to prefer their own
company or that of close friends and family.
That is because you are wise and knows how to
treasure the reliable in your life, since you
know popularity can be a false element. You are
also not that big on taking risks and prefer
what is already explored. That is because you
don't like suprises, they can turn out bad and
then you won't be in control.
Negative aspects: Since you're always
doing the right thing and being trustworthy all
the time you can become frustrated. Also, all
that you carry on your shoulders may stress you
out. You need to relax to be in good mental
shape.




What Power is Compatible With You?
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kawaii, desu ne?
Your label is the Nice girl/guy. You tend to care
for others over yourself. However, many people
appreciate your caring side and would rather
stick by you than hurt you. But, there is a
downside. Some tend to abuse your kindness and
take advantage of you. You always try to see
the good in everyone and try not to hate.
Also, you have sharp insight and a great
personality. Calm, serene, and understanding,
you make a worthy friend and a valuble ally to
people in need. Don't change your sweet
nature, your constant being-there can save a
life.

I suggest your go into a field that
centers around working with others such as a
doctor, baby-sitter, psychologist, lifeguard,
or Teacher. If none of these occupations
interest you, it is okay then. I am sure that
there are plenty of oppertunities out there for
you.


What type of teenager are you?
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sfdtdjf
You're Element is Night. You're a bit of a loner
loner who is very creative but never show your
work to anyone. You may smile a little but
sadness or loneliness surround you and other
can feel it when they're near you. You have a
dark or unusual beauty that makes you
mysterious and you probably have a lot of
secrets that you've never told anyone. You're
beauty is intriging and unorthidox but the real
thing that makes you special is your eyes.
Something in them makes them like Diamonds in
the Rough. (please forgive me if you cannot see
the pics. If you go to my userpage then you can
see your result picture at the bottom)


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beautiful winged angel
A beautiful angel. God would hand pick you to be
his right hand angel. You are a blessing
beyond blessings. You are kind and helpful
towards everyone and everything. You also have
a smile to lighten up the world. You believe
everything deserves a chance to thrive and live
on to greatness. To you, everything has a
purpose and a way of living and you hold no
grudge against it.


What Type of Angel Will You Be?
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Holy
You are a holy princess Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light you radiate purity. Your innocence and
wisdom sees the good in everyone. Merciful to
the extreme, you will try to help misguided
souls find themselves and peace.
Congratulations - and don't ever change - the
world needs more people like you. You are
sensitive, caring, and deep and your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful. You will only ever
use your royal power to do well, and you will
most likely give your wealth away to charity.
You love nothing more than to have all your
time occupied with good deeds.


Which proud princess are you? (Dazzling pics and detailed results!)
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Complete sincerity: You believe in being
straightforward with others, and you expect the
same from them. People would consider you a
good listener, and one who is calm and mostly
serious.


Which Characteristic From the Samurai Code Matches You Best? (You may find out your best trait)
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Smirk
You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.


What Kind of Smile are You?
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HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA





You Are A Realist


You are more romantic than 20% of the population.






When it comes to romance, you tend to take a realistic approach.
You believe that love takes time, and it's something you have to work hard for.
A bit cynical, over the top romance tends to get under your skin.
Your heart is difficult to win ... but it's totally worth it.


So... addicted... to quizzes...

You Are 74% American
Most times you are proud to be an American.
Though sometimes the good ole US of A makes you cringe
Still, you know there's no place better suited to be your home.
You love your freedom and no one's going to take it away from you!

pinanist
You are a piano. You like to express your feelings
indirectly like in lyrics, poems, and stories.
You are careful in what you do and sometimes
pull a stunt. You are calm and peaceful. But
you usually don't talk to people first they
have to talk to you.


What is your soft toned intrument?
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zvnc
You're an Autum. You're much more laid back then
most and you're very comfortable in new
situations. You rather let things go with the
flow than try to change them. You have a lot of
close friends who love you because you can help
them with their problems. You're a very patient
person and it take a lot to get you rattled.
You're deffinately a lover not a hater. (If you
can't see tje pics, go to my homepage and look
near the bottom and find your result)


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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

I hate life

All I really want to do at the moment is cry. But I can't, of course, cause it's my sister that needs the help.

I've just spent over an hour trying in vain to help my sister... and the tears keep coming. My mom took over. I just... feel so incredibly helpless. What can I do? She's sick of getting yelled at by customers and is frustrated cause T Mobile is saying that like... there's a fraud alert on her credit... but she like... has very little credit and it makes no sense and I don't even know that much about credit. And everything I offer that I may possibly help with, like, loaning her money, comes back with her saying that wouldn't work... like, the car is acting up, I offered to take the blame, tell my dad I ran into something or something, she said he'd still blame her which is probably true, and I don't know. I'm supposed (yeah, shut up, I know it's a cd) to be the one that can fix things. Yet there's nothing I can do, just sit here complaining cause I'm worthless. How did that even come around? It's like... I don't do anything.... I don't help anyone..... and I hate myself for that. But life has been good lately so where is all this coming from, ya know? It makes no sense. I hate that, everything should run by logic. There's a problem, you find the cause, you fix it, problem gone, but there's no logic to life.

My sister kept saying "being a big kid sucks" and ya know what? It's true. And I knew I was lying through my teeth when I told her that it would get better and she called my bluff and said no, it wouldn't.


And then like.... why the crap did my depression go that long without being noticed by anyone? Please tell me this. Cause like... I looked at a bunch of really old school stuff.... and like, sixth grade I freaking turned in a poem all about like.... blood and death and knives in sixth grade and no one freaking asked me about it??? Seventh grade I turn in an art assignment of a girl crying and I show a gun lying on a table behind her and no questions are asked??? What the freaking crap? Shouldn't a teacher at least like, raise an eyebrow to this type of behavior??? Especially when I did sometimes bring it up with my mom and she always just ignored me and lied to me about it?

Just... k, so my life sucks now. My life has sucked for the past.... 7.... 8 years now or whatever. And all of this has been without financial worries and I've only had one job and now I'm going to like, have to live on my own and figure out what the crap I'm going to do with the rest of my life when I don't have any idea WHAT to do..... and I'm like, starting to doubt my decision to become a therapist cause if I really suck this bad now how much am I going to suck in the future?

And like, Paul blocked me like months ago and I have no idea if he like hates me or just has no interest in talking to me.

Like.... I'm 18. I'm supposedly an adult now. My friends have jobs, are actually like... being adults. I'm here at home being pathetic. And.... what am I supposed to do? It's like... okay... I graduated.... big whoop, out of the 729 students in my year, like 690 graduated. Wow, I wasn't one of the 39 or so that didn't make it. Impressive. And like, I hang out with all the people that like... cared... and tried... so I feel like an idiot cause they all panic at like A-'s and thought they would die if they got a B and like.... I'm happy with a B.... how pathetic am I?

And here I am pissing and moaning when I have no right to. And like, my dad freaking screwed things up by telling my sis she was blowing things out of proportion and when I tell him that she has plenty reason to cry and has had a really hard day at work he just keeps on saying stuff that make my sis feel even worse and she'd just freaking talked about having no one supportive in her life and I'm like... okay, so I guess I'm not supportive, I don't know, she like hasn't even talked to me lately cause she's always at work or with friends or sleeping.

Okay, done. Enough whining for one night.

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earth
You are an Earth Fairy. You enjoy being around
people, but sitting in the middle of the
wilderness reading a book or just admiring the
scenery is more your style. A sketchbook full
of wildflowers and wildlife, you're fascinated
by the great outdoors and what lies beyond. But
being so spacey can lead to disaster. You might
miss the next assignment in class if you keep
staring at that bird out the window. Try to
focus a little more on real-time life, but
don't give up your habits to become one with
nature.


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me
You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writting.
Maybe you should try.


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Samurai

You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You
are not really the stereotypical hero, but you
do fight for good. Just in your own way. For
you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil
person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don't belive in mourning all the time and
think that once you've hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It's pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better to
just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile




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Evanescence-Bring me to life
You are "Bring me to life" by
Evanescence. Hopeless, depressed and soulless
are your keywords. Yet you have a hope, someone
who can see you for who you are. Keep
searching, or start to.


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Content
Life is good and bad. You know it can never be
perfect and that it never have been, and you're
fine with that. You still feel it's important
to live life since it can end any day and not
sulk because of some little failure in life.
You are often a happy person, still you don't
laugh all the time. You have a somewhat calm
aura and most people feel comfortable around
you.


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Reality
Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with a
variety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari)
As a person, you think life is just plain
painful, horrible and everything else you don't
like. Happy people confuse you. Alot. I mean,
why are they so happy anyway? You are depressed
and perhaps utterly alone and live life rather
montone. You feel there is no reason to really
be here and feel helpless.


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I disagree, so I took it again.

Rise
Your wise quote is: "Our greatest glory is not
in never falling, but in rising everytime we
fall" by Confucius.
Yes indeed, you see true strenght can only be
seen when a person has "fallen". Only
then one can tell how they will handle it. Just
don't make others fall so you can know who they
really are. You on the other hand may be a very
quick recoverer and don't let people bring you
down. You are your own, and you're find with
that. Emotional issues is something you handle
rather nicely.


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Depressed
Your connection with darkness is through your
depression. Hated, sad and often feeling
lonely, there is only a few that appreciate the
real you. You tend to keep to yourself and away
from the world since you don't want to be hurt
and betrayed again. Music gives you the
understanding you need to get through, it's
your "therapy". Or you express
yourself through art or writing. Chances are
you're also an anti-social person, who only
likes being with close friends, if even that.
The world has finally showed it's true face for
you and you wish life wasn't this miserable to
live through. Maybe you'll find happiness in
the future, but right now you're just hiding
away from the world. Who needs people anyway?


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Dead soul
Your soul is dead.
You've probably been through one too many rough
times in your life which has eaten you up from
the inside. Now there's nothing more to eat
from since you just don't care anymore. Life is
meaningless and you live it like a zombie. The
good thing though is that you cant be hurt,
since you are so distant from the emotional
world. Love is something you dont understand or
just dont remember. If it was up to you, your
life would already be over, but it doesn't make
you suicidal. You are probably alone most of
the time, looking at the world with a blank
stare. The yearning to feel alive and be happy
has simply gone away. What's left now is only
the shell of what used to be you.


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That's a bit disturbing. And a bit true.

Broody
Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.


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Tuesday, July 05, 2005

MEEP!




You're Captain Jack Sparrow: smart, savvy, a demon with the eyeliner and the best damn pirate we've ever seen. And only a litte crazy. Savvy?

Which POTC character are you?

this quiz was made by alanna




Shadow
Your element is Shadow: Indifferent, unusual,
gentle and a complete mystery. No one tends to
know quite what to think of you because you
camouflage your emotions so incredibly well,
almost as well as your thoughts. You are
unpredictable in that no one knows exactly what
your going to do or what your capable of and
you've made sure they never will. You are quite
the wallflower but deep down inside is a kind
and very intelligent person. You are capable of
love but unless you let some light into your
shadowed life you'll have a hard time with your
relationships. People are a mystery only
because they all seem too superficial, you
would rather be somewhere else, away from all
the noise perhaps putting your feelings into a
form of art, maybe writing your feelings into a
poem or journal, or perhaps painting a picture.
The shadows make you feel comfortable and you
don't like to step outside your comfort zone or
let anyone else in, the spotlight terrifies
you. You are truly a mystery.


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Earth Sprite
Reserved, quiet, wise and free spirited
You are a sprite of the Earth: You have a deep
connection with the earth and all its
creatures, preferring plants and animals to
people you are quiet and reserved. You
understand things on a different level and can
often see straight through to a persons true
intentions. You are mysterious to everyone even
those in your family, they may live with you
but that doesn't mean they 'know' the real you.
Being inside the house for long periods of time
can be torture, you crave the outdoors and love
simply escaping up a tree or into the forest
where you can be free. Although you may be
smart you are easy to judge a person because
you fear what they 'may' be going to do. You
are wise in things that most overlook and you
are very creative in many aspects like art,
music, etc... Although try as they may to seek
you, you are a free spirit. Just let them try
to catch and put you in a cage.


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Green Tea
Green Tea...
You are Green Tea!
Strong and very smart you prefer peace to violence
and very rarely take action if it involves
confrontation. But you make up for this with
your keen insight and understanding of the
world and people around you, you have a very
mysterious nature. Many people see you as laid
back and that may be true but you are very
intelligent and make good decisions.


What type of Tea are you? {-With Anime Pictures!-}
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I am 32% Asshole/Bitch.
Part Time Asshole/Bitch.
I may think I am an asshole or a bitch, but the truth is I am a good person at heart. Yeah sure, I can have a mean streak in me, but most of the people I meet like me.


I am 36% Geek.
Geek? Yes, but at least I got social skills.
You probably work in computers, or a history deptartment at a college. You never really fit in with the "normal" crowd. But you have friends, and this is a good thing.


I am 48% Evil Genius.
I Want to be Evil!
I want to be evil. I do evil things. But given the opportunity, and a darn good reason I may turn to the good side. Besides I am probably a miserable evil genius.


I am 24% Grunge.
Not Grunge at All.
I will get out of your sight. I'm pathetic! With my clean clothes, and nice smell. I think I took the wrong test, thank god, huh?


I am 23% Hippie.
So Not a Hippie.
What? Am I a Republican? Why did I even bother taken this test?! I guess I’ll back to my George W. Bush fan club and tell them I just wasted 10 minutes of my life. At least I don’t stink, man.


Can you tell that I'm bored?

I am 23% Idiot.
Friggin Genius
I am not annoying at all. In fact most people come to me for advice. Of course they annoy the hell out of me. But what can I do? I am smarter than most people.


I am 30% Internet Addict.
Slight Internet Addict.
I could go either way. Deep into the madness of nights filled with coding CGI-Scripts and online role playing games, or I could become a normal user. Good luck!


That one surprised me.


How evil are you?


I am 16% Metal Head.
Void of Metal.
I am going to watch some more TRL and stay out of the mosh pit. I'll only get myself hurt. I'm a lamer. A RUSTY BOLT, in the metal world. A poser. A -real- metal head would kick my ass.


I am 4% Promiscuous.
Complete And Total Prude!
There is a good chance I am still a virgin. I am not certain because I haven't even bothered to figure out what sexual intercourse actually is. But whatever it is I want nothing to do with it. There


Ha ha, no surprise there.

I am 28% Tortured Artist.
I know Art, I just don't live it.
I have some artistic ability, but it is probably a hobby and doesn't drive my life into a dark abysmal hole were I am alone and against the world.


And alas, being forced to clean my room.

Yesss


Oh, by the way, I'm back, lol. Vegas was great blah blah blah more on that later.